Saanika with 2 'A's

THE HEROES Under the frosty valley of Kargil, Suru flowed quietly Without any haste or delay Time never did his work on her She remembered it like yesterday!   The stories of the men, who marched up tiger hill, The ones with soldier hearts and God’s wisdom!   On the summer, along the cozy valley, Brave men marched to avenge the five, To restore their homeland’s glory They marched forth with fire, on the frozen earth Eyes glistening with thirst for victory They conquered the skies over the white ocean! Their   unified heartbeats lives through their country!   They promised to win at all costs And they won the battle with many loses! Some came back wrapped in tri The others adorned the heroes- On their shoulders with bitter proud! SAANIKA S LAL [A tribute to the martyr of kargil war! your legends will live forever in the hearts of every Indian!]  

SOMEBODY AND NOBODY One day I woke up And saw someone on my bedside,  she said somebody left And nobody came!   How wonderful? I lost somebody again! How wonderful that this time- I ran out of surprise faces and  She left the way she came!    I  Stood there half awake Waiting for everyone to wake And then we dressed in black, Mourned our treasured somebody!   She was the best of us! The little bundle of hope, She was the diamonds Of our dark-dark sky!   Ooh! Dear sister you left! Without goodbyes and thank yous! Without saltiness and bitter! You left the way you came!   We stood there staring at the end, For her to comeback as a ghost! A supernatural force free of- Pain and worries, she deserved that!   Now we are dressed in white, To welcome nobody! The mystery that arrived During somebody’s exile!   And there is so much to learn, So much to explore and understan...

HELPLESS The demons of my world look like me and talk like me! it is depressing to realize that I don't have have anything to say otherwise! sometimes I see an angel among us, most times I see   demons! It is confusing and tiring when you are not ready to believe the lie! most days I feel helpless with the ruins that we leave, It is so scary when our- eyes turn green with greed! I look like them, I walk like them I feel guilty for being one of them! Cause we are the elite being who forgot we don't know that much! I care too much, Its my curse I am sleepless with my aching heart! well, this is the human world, we never let things heal! The demons in this world look like me ,talk like me And I don't have anything to prove otherwise The demons I fear are my own kind! SAANIKA S LAL [ heloooi! welcome back ! yesterday I did an experiment which failed miserably!!😂 I didn't share my post link in my insta and whatsapp to see if anybody cared! And nobody did!😂😂 soo that wa...

TRAUMATIZING FALL It was a very dark room.Her voice was trembling when she called for help! The voice echoed in all directions and returned back to herself.There was no one around.Panic bubbled inside her, she was not familiar with the unknown.She was far to well pampered with predictability and planing!And the room was teaming with uncertainty and that scared her...a lot! Traumatizing fall! she laughed.How creative of her.She realized her wisdom was all from her imaginations and it was way far from real life.She had the nerve to explain something soo deep and dark with just two words! they satisfied the teenage romanticism of darkness and suffering. They thought suffering was love.They thought loyalty was sacrifice. They measured their love using the level of pain they went through! And can we blame ourselves for this mentality?  when grown adults created the "teenage life" contents that  intoxicated the youth with this idea. And here she was in the absolute darkness.Still b...

TO ALL THE SOULS I LOVE                         You are the raindrops, that always drizzled on me, you are the sunlight, who let me see everything! You are the ocean, you are the rain, you are the sun, you are the nature! You are everything  i ever wanted, you are more than  what I deserve! Cause you are the sunshine, the wind is you! you are the heartbeat - that keeps me going! All we ever wanted was someone who heard and thats what we-  did for each other! We are the imperfect match, the wind and storm! the rose and fire! the black and grey! "You are mine" is what i think every time  we talk! but I know I am just one under your shade! Cause you are the deep blue, I am just the fizzing white! you are the nature that keeps me going! I love you for who you are! and please don't ever change! cause there are many like me, who live to see you smile!  SAANIKA S LAL [!!!!DEDICATED TO THOSE WONDERFUL FANTASTIC...

THE SUN I am the sun, shining bright spreading warmness all around! I keep the darkness away so that the world can smile! I send my love in all directions I give my help and care!  I always made everyone - as wonderful as they could be! i have numerous friends! they call me from far away! they send their love back to me but the void forbid me from them! I am the sun, born to provide never to receive anything in return! I am  left out in the void to live my life in isolation! I am the God, I am the slave! I am the savior and the demon! fire is all I have , because I am fire the warmth and heat keeps me going! few  have wandered  in  to explore and reach out to me! Their journeys perished between me and the void! I am warmth ,I am love but I am fire, fire is all I know! so I hug them with my heat but they seem to burn in my hands! the more they loved the more I loved! And more their wings burned and turn to soot and ash! Alone is all I have It protect yo...

THE NUMBNESS There is this numbness inside my head it feel like there is no one inside! feelings feel intense and weird - and outside world a mystery! When I walk , its mechanical when I sit it is forced! I can wander off to galaxies, when I am just being me! I prefer lonesome more but I am scared of loneliness! I want to laugh more but- curving lips waters my eyes! It feels mundane and sad and it feels intricate and mad! it is confusing and amusing and nothing make sense! Smiling is exhausting and laughing hurts so much! joking is tiring and  having fun is impossible! My eyes are burning , my soul is parched! I want to wake up, but I never slept! It's just this numbness in my head, It feels like there is none inside! feelings feel intense and dark and outside world a mystery! SAANIKA S LAL [I used to consider myself a bundle of sunshine! I used to spread rainbows and unicorns left and right! I always saw life as a rainbow! I never in my wildest dream thought I would go through suc...

MUSIC OF THE VOID In the silence of my home, down the mystic stairways and past the ticking ol' clock, I heard something quite unusual! It was the silence of the silence, the music of the void! It was so beautiful when you- heard nothing but heard everything! Then my limbs moved like madness like they owned themselves! my heart rejoiced in the bliss and my confused brain followed along! I was dancing to the silence, in the oblivion of the world I just didn't cared about anything I was dancing on my own! And ooh! Lord it felt so good I tried all my best to be goofy! I sometimes did some sexy moves and laugh out loud when I failed! I felt proud and wonderful to own myself and do whatever I wanted! I no didn't cared what I did cause my soul was having a great time! And then the trance left and my senses-  came back to the so called normal! I hugged the floor in exhaustion as I laughed like a maniac! I paused there in awe as all the weights lifted It felt so good to be o...

FEARS My fears always outnumbered my angels,   they always know when to blow me down! they come out from the darkest holes- to give me another sleepless night! I was afraid,I was lost! but I never understood why! I was terrified, I was scared- as the darkness drenched my heart! well! they were creative! you should give them the praise! they made monsters and demons from the tiny dreads I had! They all hit me when I was low, they tortured me when I was weak! I used to hate them and I - always ran away from them! But one day , I fell down! I fell and fell until it almost felt like flying! And then came the glorious landing, and I shattered like a glass vase! It was the darkest hole.painfully cold! It was so dark ,I couldn't find myself! then they came my fears and I- braced myself for my nightmares! My shoulders sensed a cold grey touch- and I opened my eyes to inquire! there stood the monsters in a row who tormented me all my life! I tried to scream, but my throat was parched! ...

CHEWING GUM I hate chewing gums I hate them so much! where ever I go I see that weird blue thing in a human mouth! One day I went outside it was years before I hated gums, I way wonderful and sane until that thing stuck on my shoes! And then I saw that drooling mouth, chewing down that awful thing! then I saw that sickening eyes, which took over my sanity! And then that eyes walked away, pretending nothing ever happened- as I stood there with burning eyes not knowing what to feel! before leaving that mouth spit that awful thing down! I stared at that blue on the pavement primed to trouble someone else! Ooh! that day I scrubbed my shoes, I washed them  hard as I could! I cleaned them with all my might but that blue lingered on! Now I hate chewing gums I walk head down inspecting them! I hate them so much that   I still   - come home and wash my shoes! SAANIKA S LAL [well it is the truth.as sad and pathetic as it sounds our society homes such scoundrels,And t...

CHOCOLATE MUFFINS I'm a chocolate muffin! I am warm and sweet filled with homely love and bits of happy nuts! I start my life as a gooey batter which trust me is pretty boring! and then comes the choco chips and then its a twirly party! Ooh!then I get my own mold and I go inside that hellish oven! Its soooo dark n' warm n' scary that I become tinsy bit gassy! Then I rise like my expectations just to settle down as a uneven mess! the chocolate oozes out- and ooh boy!its  a treat! I'm a chocolate muffin! filled with choco-late n' cho-co-late some  nutty love n' sweet mess and some secret salt...I'm such a rebel! I'm a chocolate muffin  here to chase your demons away! I might seem so mushy and cute but trust me! I am a bad ass! SAANIKA S LAL [ Hellooo! welcome back!if you are new feel free to follow by email or explore around! and that is my 2nd poem and 3 rd post! we are all going through a very tough time and we may feel depressed and grey. and the intern...

WOULD YOU DO IT AGAIN? Would you do it again? if you know what would happen. would you let everything happen again, knowing where you would end up! Will you go down the same path which was once filled with mystery! will you do things once again, to rise and fall once again! Would you take the same turns  knowing you will unlove what you love! or would you do things different and embrace the uncertainty! Would you rewrite everything- and destroy your wondrous creations  or would you become the martyr and loose yourself for the art! Would you let you torment yourself would you let the darkness seep. or would you shatter into pieces just to shine like fake diamonds! Are you ready to go back to those sleepless nights knowing the pain you would go through, Or would you do things differently- embracing a new dark night! Would you survive it either way! would you succeed in your choice will you get trapped in the same loop or will you enter a whole new one? Would you l...

Hi! I am Saanika and this is my random madness!!! Welcome, this is a small step I have taken for my dear passion a chance to proper.  SPOILER: I LOOOOOVE to write. Writing is a passion I am 100% dedicated to.I always wrote interesting stories from a very young age but I never realised I AM a writer. It felt quite natural that I never consider it an extraordinary talent! Then I was introduced into the wondrous world of literature. The remarkable people in that world (thanks to Amish, sir Doyle, Louisa May Alcott ,Agatha Christie  and many others) I realised art is to be interpreted,loved , enjoyed and critized. That  was the great turning point.I troubled the few wonderful souls in my life with my scribbles. They became my first critics and fans.And that impulse have brought me into THE INTERNET  to extend my group of wonderful souls.😍 You will find the random madness in the crazy little mind of mine,Heart felt poems and crazy stories. Let's explore the craziness tog...