Poems

POEM 1:WOULD YOU DO IT AGAIN?

Would you do it again?

if you know what would happen.

would you let everything happen again,

knowing where you would end up!

Will you go down the same path

which was once filled with mystery!

will you do things once again,

to rise and fall once again!

Would you take the same turns 

knowing you will unlove what you love!

or would you do things different

and embrace the uncertainty!

Would you rewrite everything-

and destroy your wondrous creations 

or would you become the martyr

and loose yourself for the art!

Would you let you torment yourself

would you let the darkness seep.

or would you shatter into pieces

just to shine like fake diamonds!

Are you ready to go back to those sleepless nights

knowing the pain you would go through,

Or would you do things differently-

embracing a new dark night!

Would you survive it either way!

would you succeed in your choice

will you get trapped in the same loop

or will you enter a whole new one?

Would you let yourself play God ,

or would you let God play you?

or would you do nothing....

feeling too old for another adventure?

SAANIKA S LAL

[One way to find out I guess!! 2nd post!! I have a lot more creations to share and I will post them as soon as possible.And thank you for stopping by to read my madness!! if you like my content feel free to subscribe so you will get a notification via mail every time i upload!! AND DO COMMENT YOUR THOUGHTS! I always welcome critics.And also..... spread some love people💓]

POEM 2:CHOCOLATE MUFFINS

I'm a chocolate muffin!

I am warm and sweet

filled with homely love

and bits of happy nuts!

I start my life as a gooey batter

which trust me is pretty boring!

and then comes the choco chips

and then its a twirly party!

Ooh!then I get my own mold

and I go inside that hellish oven!

Its soooo dark n' warm n' scary

that I become tinsy bit gassy!

Then I rise like my expectations

just to settle down as a uneven mess!

the chocolate oozes out-

and ooh boy!its  a treat!

I'm a chocolate muffin!

filled with choco-late n' cho-co-late

some  nutty love n' sweet mess

and some secret salt...I'm such a rebel!

I'm a chocolate muffin 

here to chase your demons away!

I might seem so mushy and cute

but trust me! I am a bad ass!

SAANIKA S LAL

[Hellooo! welcome back!if you are new feel free to follow by email or explore around! and that is my 2nd poem and 3 rd post!

we are all going through a very tough time and we may feel depressed and grey. and the internet is also sometimes in that gloomy state. so the chocolate muffin thought they had to rescue THE INTERNET!!

I have recently seen many poems and quotes across social media romanticizing depression(art have its own freedom to choose anything) but it is  bringing out a toxic idea of comparing suffering with love and loneliness with bliss!

Guys don't go down that path! ok then bye!!! spread some love 💖]

                  POEM 3:    CHEWING GUM

I hate chewing gums

I hate them so much!

where ever I go I see that

weird blue thing in a human mouth!

One day I went outside

it was years before I hated gums,

I way wonderful and sane

until that thing stuck on my shoes!

And then I saw that drooling mouth,

chewing down that awful thing!

then I saw that sickening eyes,

which took over my sanity!

And then that eyes walked away,

pretending nothing ever happened-

as I stood there with burning eyes

not knowing what to feel!

before leaving that mouth

spit that awful thing down!

I stared at that blue on the pavement

primed to trouble someone else!

Ooh! that day I scrubbed my shoes,

I washed them  hard as I could!

I cleaned them with all my might

but that blue lingered on!

Now I hate chewing gums

I walk head down inspecting them!

I hate them so much that  I still -

come home and wash my shoes!

SAANIKA S LAL

[well it is the truth.as sad and pathetic as it sounds our society homes such scoundrels,And their prying eyes have destroyed many lives around us. These eyes are around us and the suffering is real.But we will never have any proof against them.And even if we did the society will opt to ignore cause these terrible people are very good actors. they hide their predatory eyes behind an innocent demeanor and respectable names. And that keeps the victims mouth shut.They spent their lives inspecting and restricting everything to prevent it from ever happening again.NOBODY DESERVE TO LIVE SUCH A LIFE .PLZ PLZ STAND UP.RAISE YOUR VOICE AGAINST INJUSTICE.YOU DESERVE TO BE HEARD! YOU DESERVE TO BE TREATED WITH RESPECT! SO RAISE YOUR VOICE!!!]

POEM 4:FEARS

My fears always outnumbered my angels, 

they always know when to blow me down!

they come out from the darkest holes-

to give me another sleepless nights!

I was afraid,I was lost!

but I never understood why!

I was terrified, I was scared-

as the darkness drenched my heart!

well! they were creative!

you should give them the praise!

they made monsters and demons

from the tiny dreads I had!

They all hit me when I was low,

they tortured me when I was weak!

I used to hate them and I -

always ran away from them!

But one day , I fell down!

I fell and fell until it almost felt like flying!

And then came the glorious landing,

and I shattered like a glass vase!

It was the darkest hole.painfully cold!

It was so dark ,I couldn't find myself!

then they came my fears and I-

braced myself for my nightmares!

My shoulders sensed a cold grey touch-

and I opened my eyes to inquire!

there stood the monsters in a row

who tormented me all my life!

I tried to scream,

but my throat was parched!

I was so tired of running!

I sat down to let them have me!

To my surprise there came no growls,

but a sense of calmness  and love!

I raised my face to see some wounded eyes

who deserved to be heard!

i heard all their stories and pains

as I  discovered my sorrows through them!

the darkness lifted up

and light seeped through!

Now I sit down with my demons!

I laugh along my monsters!

I no longer run from my fears

as I realized they are my gloom in disguise!

SAANIKA S LAL

[ we all go through such hard times and these turning point bring out a stronger version of ourselves!! To all who is going through this point of life its OK to be afraid!! just have some courage to share your feelings! And you will be fine in the end.

 I know the ending was kind of a cliche! but that is life! how else could you explain it?(also i wrote this poem as a 24 hrs challenge so she didn't got the time to develop😁)  our blog got a total view of 350 just in this short time!!!which is a big deal for a blog!!soo thenks! and  you can recommend it to your friends if you wish that is😜.oke beei !spread love💓] 

POEM 5:MUSIC OF THE VOID

In the silence of my home,

down the mystic stairways

and past the ticking ol' clock,

I heard something quite unusual!

It was the silence of the silence,

the music of the void!

It was so beautiful when you-

heard nothing but heard everything!

Then my limbs moved like madness

like they owned themselves!

my heart rejoiced in the bliss and

my confused brain followed along!

I was dancing to the silence,

in the oblivion of the world

I just didn't cared about anything

I was dancing on my own!

And ooh! Lord it felt so good

I tried all my best to be goofy!

I sometimes did some sexy moves

and laugh out loud when I failed!

I felt proud and wonderful

to own myself and do whatever I wanted!

I no didn't cared what I did

cause my soul was having a great time!

And then the trance left and my senses-

 came back to the so called normal!

I hugged the floor in exhaustion

as I laughed like a maniac!

I paused there in awe

as all the weights lifted

It felt so good to be oneself in the world

that crushed down the different!

SAANIKA S LAL

[ But I keep cruising, can't stop, won't stop moving

It's like I got this music in my mind, sayin' it's gonna be alright

                         -Shake it off (Taylor Shift)

I just had to throw this song. Guys!! just dance like madness! it is the best advice i could ever give you! Just be your self for a hot sec in your life! And spent that glorious time with the one Who know you the best.YOU. trust me!! its a bliss!!just love yourself!  who else deserve your love more than yourself?!

okkei beei spread love💖.........

thinking about posting a malayalam story👀 what do you think?]

POEM 6:THE NUMBNESS

There is this numbness inside my head

it feel like there is no one inside!

feelings feel intense and weird -

and outside world a mystery!

When I walk , its mechanical

when I sit it is forced!

I can wander off to galaxies,

when I am just being me!

I prefer lonesome more

but I am scared of loneliness!

I want to laugh more but-

curving lips waters my eyes!

It feels mundane and sad

and it feels intricate and mad!

it is confusing and amusing

and nothing make sense!

Smiling is exhausting and

laughing hurts so much!

joking is tiring and 

having fun is impossible!

My eyes are burning 

my soul is parched!

I want to wake up

but I never slept!

Its just this numbness in my head,

It feels like there is none inside!

feelings feel intense and dark

and outside world a mystery!

SAANIKA S LAL

[I used to consider myself a bundle of sunshine! I used to spread rainbows and unicorns left and right! I always saw life as a rainbow!

I never in my wildest dream thought I would go through such a dark time !Well life has unexpected turnings!

I could not stress this more ! DEPRESSION IS A REAL THING! if you are going through depression reach out for help( I know it would feel impossible for you right now! but plz try).be brave! it takes courage to voice ones feelings !and you ARE brave !You  are worthy of love! you deserve time! you are to be loved !YOU ARE NOT USELESS!! DON'T LET THE DEMON TELL YOU OTHERWISE!!!

if this poem resonate with you plz don't go down that hell! cause this poem is not from my imagination  but from my real life!

MENTAL ILLNESS IS A REAL THING!AND IT SHOULD NEVER BE IGNORED!!!]

POEM 7:THE SUN

I am the sun, shining bright

spreading warmness all around!

I keep the darkness away

so that the world can smile!

I send my love in all directions

I give my help and care!

 I always made everyone -

as wonderful as they could be!

i have numerous friends!

they call me from far away!

they send their love back to me

but the void forbid me from them!

I am the sun, born to provide

never to receive anything in return!

I am  left out in the void

to live my life in isolation!

I am the God, I am the slave!

I am the savior and the demon!

fire is all I have , because I am fire

the warmth and heat keeps me going!

few  have wandered  in 

to explore and reach out to me!

Their journeys perished

between me and the void!

I am warmth ,I am love

but I am fire, fire is all I know!

so I hug them with my heat

but they seem to burn in my hands!

the more they loved

the more I loved!

And more their wings burned

and turn to soot and ash!

Alone is all I have

It protect you from me

cause I am the sun banished in the void!

destined to provide and nothing more!

SAANIKA S LAL

[ It is alright keep your distance!

Aaah! I don't have much to add to that!I was planning to post a bubbly cute poem but somehow i ended up here! 

today is my brother's bday ❤HAPPY BDAY UNNIMWON❤ and thats it suprisingly I don't have nothing to talk! I'll come back tomorrow with that bubbly poem I was talking about. ok beei!!!]

POEM 8:THE SAME OLD LOOP

The same old  loop,

just repainted and shinier ,

Aaah! thought I would never realize!

Oh dear! I've known you my whole life!

Its always the same roller coaster ride

I have learned every curves,

all your drops and winding!

fate! try something new!

You where clever this time,

replacing black with white, grey with yellow,

lighting the room, bringing the pink!

truly a very genius move!

I almost thought this was new,

bubbles instead of arrows  was ingenious !

but you forgot to disguise

that traumatizing fall!

I would sense it in my sleep,

I would recognize it-

with eyes closed and ears chopped!

I'm sorry friend ! better luck next time!

SAANIKA S LAL

[ Hiii! this is officially our 15th post!yeaay!!

we all have life incidents that often reoccur constantly! however we try to lure away from it we often end up in the same spot!

and there are other scenarios where we always come back to the same spot without even realizing it.life sometimes trap us inside this endless loop of misery to dethrone us! but we often fail to notice that we have been here before! we have overcame this situation in past! we can overcome the same situation again! when fate comes up with a new misery have the courage to say "try something new!"(set aaak pever varatte✌👊) 

here u go! another poem from my archive! this one is relatively new! i wrote it few months back! before covid19!

which seems like a long time ago😥! anyway don't let the lock down and pandemic destroy your spirit! spread unicorns,fairy dust and rainbows with a tinsy drop of love!!😋💖]

POEM 9:DEAR GIRLS,ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!

Someone did something bad-

and the victim wore a short dress!

they said its because of the dress,

and asked me to never wear one!

A monster  took a women's life,

but she was all covered up in a burka!

they said its because she was a woman,

and  asked me to never be one!

A scoundrel destroyed a little girl,

but she was far from being a woman!

and they blamed her parents,its their fault!

and asked my parents to watch out!

A working woman was too tired,

she went outside for a late night walk!

and when it happened to her,It was her fault!

they asked me to stay inside!

A college girl, stayed home,

but she raised her voice against injustice,

and then it happened to her,it was her fault!

they said to keep my mouth shut!

Its easier to blame her,

than to face the flaw in us!

its easier to keep quite,

than to do something about it!

Now a girl is afraid to show her bra strap,

her period blood stain, her breasts,her body,

she can't show anything that makes her a woman,

cause in the end, it will be her fault!

let something happen, keep your mouth shut!

and come out of the dark when it is over!

sympathize, mourn and cry for her and-

then write the letter,"dear girls,its your fault!

SAANIKA S LAL