Saanika with 2 'A's

  [TRIGGER WARNING: MENTION OF RAPE] I could feel something wet between my legs, It’s the blood dark, cold and red! I am trying to breathe, my chest is burning! Help! I am naked and cold!   Everywhere hurts, I am all alone, I am bleeding, I am crying, I am dressed in wounds! Hear me world, I have no strength left!   The last glimpse of green meadows- Are filled with this terrific black! The soft grass I loved, Feels like a million swords!   Help! Sense my absence! I can’t scream! They have chopped my tongue! They took my eyes, everything is darkness! I am blind now like the world!   Death! Take me to my sisters and my mothers, To the one who knows my pain! I want to hug them and Know I am safe in Heaven!   I dare not see the God, The one who let this happen! I dare not see anyone who- Let this happen to us!   Close your eyes! Chop off your ears! Say nothing of what happened ,world! Bury me...

CLEAR BLUE SKY   It's a clear blue sky, With sky blue blues and Pure  white clouds and Butterflies flying around! It was grey and gloom, For a very long time, And I saw the sun today It feels like a long time! Now the tears have drained away And the wind has cleared the grey! There is no time for grief, Let's run down hills with glee! Ooh! I can still feel the damp! The one from yesterday's storm! Its water everywhere and- It shines like million diamonds! It was really dark for days all long, And everyone have gave up hope, Then you see the clear blue sky! I knew she would figure it out! Now all the dust has washed off! The world have quenched her thirst, Everything is polished new! It's time to  start again! Bid farewell to rain! For cleansing things alright! And say hello to the sun, the flowers, The clear blue sky and let's  smile again! SAANIKA S LAL [its a wonderful day to start new! the skies are clear and the sun is shining! stop dwelling on the stormy ye...

 HYPOCRITE I am a hypocrite! I talk about both sides, I don't know why, but- I see everything in everyway! And ooh! dear its hard, taking decision is way too hard! when all that matter is me, I sympathize with my torturers! when I ought to run away    for  my  sanity and happiness, I tend to stay in the darkness! letting it in and ruining my colors! I am a hypocrite! I talk about self love- and I do things  selflessly ! I say one thing and do the other!   I close the door for good, but peak in once a while! I tend to leave it open, when it ought to be locked! I am a hypocrite! I say to love oneself! when I loath myself! I say one thing and do the other! I am a hypocrite! who smiles a lot to hide- and cries beneath that hide! and lives a world of lie! SAANIKA S LAL [ We all are hypocrites in some point of our lives! we say one thing and do the other! this hypocrisy is very common when its about treating oneself! we give out compassion and love to others...

 THE FALL Two young girls stood near a huge precipice. the view was splendid with pink skies and clouds that looked like cotton candy. The pink mushy cushions layered the fall keeping what lays beneath a mystery. But they had little time to enjoy the view because there was a decision to be made . "what should we do?" the one with teary eyes asked. "whatever we do, we do that together ! ok ? " the other one said. Her eyes were also wet but it was glistening with anger and defeat. "Grey! do we have to jump? I mean look around, its beautiful! and they will come too! they will take us home!" Hope replied with her watery eyes half believing in her fantasy. "Hope! I am looking around! There is nothing but this rock! if we stay, we are stuck here forever! we should jump! The uncertainty is  better than your faithless dream!" "Please" her once wonderful eyes was brimming with helplessness," please! lets give them a last chance! they will r...

 DEAR GIRLS,ITS NOT YOUR FAULT! Someone did something bad- and the victim wore a short dress! they said its because of the dress, and asked me to never wear one! A monster  took a women's life, but she was all covered up in a burka! they said its because she was a woman, and  asked me to never be one! A scoundrel destroyed a little girl, but she was far from being a woman! and they blamed her parents,its their fault! and asked my parents to watch out! A working woman was too tired, she went outside for a late night walk! and when it happened to her,It was her fault! they asked me to stay inside! A college girl, stayed home, but she raised her voice against injustice, and then it happened to her,it was her fault! they said to keep my mouth shut! Its easier to blame her, than to face the flaw in us! its easier to keep quite, than to do something about it! Now a girl is afraid to show her bra strap, her period blood stain, her breasts,her body, she can't show anything that m...

 THE SAME OLD LOOP The same old  loop, just repainted and shinier , Aaah! thought I would never realize! Oh dear! I've known you my whole life! Its always the same roller coaster ride I have learned every curves, all your drops and winding! fate! try something new! You where clever this time, replacing black with white, grey with yellow, lighting the room, bringing the pink! truly a very genius move! I almost thought this was new, bubbles instead of arrows  was ingenious ! but you forgot to disguise that traumatizing fall! I would sense it in my sleep, I would recognize it- with eyes closed and ears chopped! I'm sorry friend ! better luck next time! SAANIKA S LAL [ Hiii! this is officially our 15th post!yeaay!! we all have life incidents that often reoccur constantly! however we try to lure away from it we often end up in the same spot! and there are other scenarios where we always come back to the same spot without even realizing it.life sometimes trap us insid...

 MY WISH THAT WILL NEVER FULFILL TO  BISHOP MOORE VIDYAPITH AND  MY WONDERFUL TEACHERS💖 I dream  to play with animals! I dream to dance in the rain! I dream to eat wild fruits! But my life is to  breathe polluted air! my life is to sit aside with plastic toys!  my life is to take  in umbrella in rain! my life is to taste poison and dirt! my life is to live in an unhappy polluted world! SAANIKA S LAL [helooooooi! I am back! I dedicate this one to my dearest "fan"😜 Aziiiiiii💖koch paranja karnam anatto ithu postunne💖 you could say 12 year old me predicted the future😕. ennalum   look at that repetition,imagery and rhythm! I wrote this when I didn't know there were things such as poetic devices (enna cheyana njen oru pro aai pooi😁😜) i was not posting for a while! it was not because I wasn't writing,it was because I didn't want to share them😅 they were kind of dark and sad and depressing and I wanted to spread unicorns and rainbows in ...