THE NUMBNESS

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THE NUMBNESS


There is this numbness inside my head
it feel like there is no one inside!
feelings feel intense and weird -
and outside world a mystery!

When I walk , its mechanical
when I sit it is forced!
I can wander off to galaxies,
when I am just being me!

I prefer lonesome more
but I am scared of loneliness!
I want to laugh more but-
curving lips waters my eyes!

It feels mundane and sad
and it feels intricate and mad!
it is confusing and amusing
and nothing make sense!

Smiling is exhausting and
laughing hurts so much!
joking is tiring and 
having fun is impossible!

My eyes are burning ,
my soul is parched!
I want to wake up,
but I never slept!

It's just this numbness in my head,
It feels like there is none inside!
feelings feel intense and dark
and outside world a mystery!
SAANIKA S LAL


[I used to consider myself a bundle of sunshine! I used to spread rainbows and unicorns left and right! I always saw life as a rainbow!
I never in my wildest dream thought I would go through such a dark time !Well life has unexpected turnings!

I could not stress this more ! DEPRESSION IS A REAL THING! if you are going through depression reach out for help( I know it would feel impossible for you right now! but plz try).be brave! it takes courage to voice ones feelings !and you ARE brave !You  are worthy of love! you deserve time! you are to be loved !YOU ARE NOT USELESS!! DON'T LET THE DEMON TELL YOU OTHERWISE!!!

MENTAL ILLNESS IS A REAL THING!AND IT SHOULD NEVER BE IGNORED!!!]

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